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The first day at school

Sooooo it’s the first day of school. I’m beginning a four week Spanish course in Panama. And I’m nervous.

It’s been a long time since I have studied myself – but I am trying to remember that I’ve spent the last 9 years teaching others and helping them to learn and study effectively so I know what I *should* do. But then that makes it worse as I worry I’ll be rubbish at it and fail miserably and everyone will laugh at me and I’ll lose my job… 

Did I mention I catasrophise occasionally? Haha

I jest, well slightly, I don’t think I’ll lose my job, or that people will actually laugh at me. But it is still a little scary as it’s doing something new. And most of us, particularly as adults, have this kind of fear of the unknown.

So I just say to myself “what is the worst that can happen?”

And I try to answer it honestly – so no catastrophic events please – and I realise it’s going to be ok. I’m on a little journey to be my best me, and that means I need to do some things that are a little uncomfortable sometimes. BUT, like 9 times out of 10, once you get started it’s not as bad as you thought it would be!

For me, it’s also exciting as going to another country to learn a language is something my mum did (although she was much younger than me when she did) – so I know I can do this. And I know she would be very proud of me right now too.

I’m setting myself the challenge of writing one blog post in Spanish by the end of my course – I’m working on the Spanish hashtags on instagram already haha.

Bueno – off to my first class now, hasta luego!!

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